#5

its been a while havent been in much of a writing mood lately but here goes...
the holidays as you know have been utter shite but it started looking up went to my friends bday and that was fun. told the guy my issues he seemed understanding but he rold my friends bf that his concern is the fact i have a kid which is fair enough its a totally different lifestyle. we'll see other than that no progress...
been switching up between eating like a monster and being restrictive and i cant seem to get up to my lowest required weight dont know whats going on the past few days been eating quite a bit junk and chocolate included. i should be happy but i want to get better...at one point i hit like 67kg and idk but i looked in the mirror and yeah the two almost three lines of rib bone on my chest made me happy but the stomach sags more (thanks pregnancy) and more visible cellulite on my thighs also realizing at the top i cant get more narrow because no matter how much you starve your rib cage wont reduce in size so hit the limit there. i really need to get with the exercise and tone up i think i could find a bit of satisfaction in that. yeah i could loose some weight but i've realized this is my weight my natural weight so deal with it bitch...ana mia i am talking to you. been sick all week i am the snot monster. murrr....
smootches